So I'm working out of my house the next couple of days. That's nice.

I bought a new car, too, which is also nice.

John sent me flowers on our "40-monthversary" last week, which was very nice.

I'm dreaming of moving out; I can't wait to get back to South Bend and my townhouse and my freedom. Not that I'm all that restricted here in terms of doing what I want, but I hate that I can't buy my own groceries and cook dinners that only I may like, etc. John and I have both been whining about that lately - we both want to start our lives without having to worry if we're hurting a family member's feelings if we do our own laundry or cook our own food. Nuts, huh?

Well, back to work.

Sometimes it just hits you when you don't expect it.

Sometimes you're driving along just fine, and then you realize just how much you hurt.

Sometimes you miss someone so much that it overwhelms you.






I want it to be August 2007 soooo bad.

So about two months have past since I updated - a lot has changed.

My undergraduate years at Notre Dame are over. I'm still a little in shock. I think there's sommething so magical about those four years at ND that will make me cherish them forever. Yeah, yeah, I'm going back in two months, but it'll never be the same.

Graduation was hectic but nice. But it robbed me of my forever friends and the love of my life. I'm still not sure how I'm supposed to cope with the next fourteen months.

And I came home to find Chewy had gone blind. This change in my family's life has been so traumatic and amazing at the same time. He's doing well and adjusting, but I still wish that I could have my doggy get his sight back. I cried so much when it first happened.

Here I am, two months from starting ND Law, and finding that I'm barely starting to grieve my graduation loss. I dream of ND all the time, I dream of John and our friends... I want it back. I want it all back.

My life is so different than it was four years ago. I don't fit here anymore on my own. I need John with me, I need my best friend Nicole, I need the people who have formed me over the past four years...

And now I'm doing it all over again - law school. I'm a little nervous, being that I haven't had the pleasure of a torturous school in the past four years and now I'm going into a top tier school. Maybe it won't be that bad ;)