I've been back at school for a week now - fall break was so nice. I miss home.

So apparently Ivy League law schools want me to apply. I'm applying to most of the ones that gave me fee waivers just to see if I can get in. Maybe I'll end up in NYC next year. Ha. Wouldn't that be a strange turn of events in this Texan's life?

Sometimes being an RA gets on my nerves. Actually, sometimes just being a rational person gets on my nerves because I marvel at the stupidity of other humans. Seriously, people, how can you think that drinking is the only source of fun? That rules are okay to just shun completely, and that it's okay to lie to the face of someone who's in authority... who raised these morons?!

Annnnyway.

The cold is beginning to set in here. And it'll only get worse lol. My, my.

I loved you then, I love you still, I will love you til forever passes by...

I'm a little over a week away from going home for my last Fall Break. I'm shocked. Those who know me know what a sucker I am for thinking about how much time has passed between various points in my life, and this is no different. Four Fall Breaks. Notre Dame is nearly over - only a semester and a half left before I say goodbye.

Am I ready for graduation? Yes. Am I ready for the next phase of my life? Yes. Do I know what that next phase is going to be? Um, no.

Right now it looks like I'll be doing Teach for America, that is, if they'll have me. I just don't see myself working in a blah job or going to law school right now. I need to earn some money, but I want to be making some sort of difference/impact on the world while I'm doing it. This limbo is not good though. For the first time in my life, I don't know what's happening. So I start to think of crazy things and I drive everyone around me nuts. I feel sorry for John, but at the same time, I also (irrationally, I'm sure, since that's my signature) hold him a little responsible for this instability in my future plans. We talk about marriage and whatnot as if it's going to happen, and while he claims that he seriously talks about it and is planning on it, I don't understand how people can plan on things like that yet not mind being apart for a year or more. Sigh. I don't understand why things are the way they are.

So here I am, Thursday afternoon, wasting time typing in here instead of working on reviews or reading for my midterms that I have next week. Not that it matters anyway.