The John Mayer and Maroon5 concert last night was fabulous... Mandy and I had a great time.  I wish I could see them again!
 
I was looking at my calendar today and saw that I only have three more weekends left in Houston.  Isn't that ridiculous? I feel like the summer has gone by really quickly; yet I don't know, at the same time I wish it were over now.  Mainly because I really miss John and it's so strange to think that so much time has passed since I last saw him.
 
Molly called me this afternoon - another wonderful thing for today :) I really really wish she weren't gone all next semester... I'm going to miss her a lot. But I guess it's okay because we'll both be 21 in the spring semester and can party while all of our pre-med friends are studying for MCATs ;) hehehe
 
Well I'm going to be on my way. Later all :)

One week later and things are much better.  The car's doing better, Mom's doing better... everyone seems much better.
 
I go back to ND in a month and two days! I really miss school and (almost )everything that comes with it.  It's been too long.
 
I'm currently (still) freaking out about what I'm going to do upon graduation from ND.  I really don't know whether or not I want to go to law school, or maybe get a master's degree in counseling psychology, or maybe be an admissions counselor at ND for a couple of years, or what.  I don't like this uncertainty, but I'm really scared that I'm just not good or smart enough to do a lot of the things that I've thought about doing.  Maybe I should write for a living. Ha. Right. Ahhhhhh! I need to get back to school so that I can talk to some of my profs about this.  I'll lose my mind here. lol
 
John Mayer and Maroon 5 on Saturday! I'm so excited to see them! I'm praying that it doesn't rain that day...
 
Later.
 
 

#*$(*@#^#@$*$@!!!

Those were my sentiments today. Frustration galore.

Perhaps I'm just superstitious, but I never use excuses such as "my car broke down" or "my [insert relative here] is very ill" etc because I am scared that they'll come true. Lo and behold, my mother's excuse became truth.

She told her office that she would be late today because of car trouble. Well, well, well... I took the car in this morning to get the tires rotated, where I was told that the struts (whatever the hell those are) were broken and it was very dangerous to drive the car in that condition. So there I was, 8am, freaking out because I had nooo idea what the heck I was going to do for the rest of the day.

Long story short, the car is sitting at my aunt's house, waiting for someone else to drive it to a mechanic. I borrowed her car for the rest of the day. I guess I'll figure tomorrow out, well, later. UGH.

Sometimes I wish I didn't live in Houston. It's days like this that make me want to go back to ND sooo bad. I'm bored here, no one ever goes out or calls or anything, and I'm just tired of being here. Blah.

Anyway. Hope you brought an umbrella to save you from the raincloud over my head. Too bad I didn't have one today. :-/

Yawn.

So my week off is now done. I'm kinda glad; I get bored sitting around here, especially when I have no real way to get out of the house... stupid car and lack of good public transportation in Houston. lol.

I met my babysitting charge yesterday. She is so sweet and sooo funny... I'm really looking forward to babysitting her for the rest of the summer :)

Had a conversation about cheating and the effects of it on relationships last night... I realized just how strict I am on that subject. I just can't see myself ever being able to truly forgive and forget and trust that person ever again. I would always question their loyalty and love for me after the incident. I just don't know... I guess I feel that there is no situation in which it's forgivable. Honestly, how you can say you love someone when you knowing ignore the promise you've made to them to be faithful? Makes my stomach hurt just thinking about it. Yuck. Annnyway...

It's time to go back to school. I'm tired of being here... arg. I know I'll miss Houston once I go back to ND, but right now I just miss a lot of people over there and I miss being able to see John everyday. Soon, please...

Anyway. More later.

Happy 4th of July :)

I can't believe it's already July. Today's also my half-birthday, which is cool because it means I'll be 21 in six months... la.

Summer is half over. It's kind of frightening to think of how quickly time has gone by; I'm ready to get back to school though... at least, I think so. It'll be really different from the past couple of years, but I hope it'll be a good different. I guess I'll have to wait and see.

At this time last year I was crying because John had just left Houston after his visit. I remember coming back to my house just after dropping him off at the airport and finding that my house felt soooo empty without him there. That's one of the reasons we really didn't push that hard for a visit this summer - saying goodbye once is hard, but it's even harder the second time around. At least, that's what we felt. By now it's been almost two months since I've seen him; it's the longest we've ever gone without seeing each other. I miss him subconsciously most of the time... I only truly feel it when I sit and think about it, and also when we say goodnight after talking on the phone in the evenings.

It's okay though. We're almost there.

I bought a new CD player today, so I think I'm going to go and workout so that I can try it out :) We're obviously not doing anything big today, so it's a good time to go and get the gym stuff over with. I like it... it's growing on me.

Well, I'm out. Here's to July... my week off between work sessions...the rest of summer... the rest of my life. :)

Later.