Brr.

First Easter break not spent with family. But in a way, I feel as if I'm with family.

I'm starting to get so anxious about leaving for the summer. I recently downloaded "Here Without You" by 3 Doors Down, and this song has the ability to bring me to tears:

A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies had made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
it gets hard but it won't take away my love

...

I can hardly recognize the person whom I used to be; I am so happy with my life the way it is right now - and I'm going to miss him so damn much this summer. It's going to be more than a hundred days. And the thought brings me to tears every time.

I can feel the change in my life as it's happening... I'm falling. Hell, what am I saying? I've already fallen... and this time is sooo different from all past ones... sigh. I'm so scared of this summer.